My update on my health and my apologies to all my friends

I knew for weeks health was going bad , So I missed a lot of posts by my friends . For that I am truly sorry .As i got weaker Drs had m try different things nothing worked . Last Monday I felt some better , Which would figure as i had a drs appointment . Tuesday I woke up in severe pain , like my son said i probably slept in a bad position . As the day went on pain only got worse .Wednesday morning i was rushed to the hospital . I told the drs you can do whatever tests you want , but i will be headed home later that day or early next day . Left next day . Since then pain keeps getting worse by the day . Too the point if i sleep 2 hours it was a great night . A surgeon called yesterday told me I needed surgery no later than next Monday or home morphine pump . As Drs sometimes do he was talking from the end not the beginning . So I had to ask him why i would need either .He told me my scans and endoscopy showed i had pancreatic cancer . I told him i would think about both. Which I have been . I have made no decision yet . I have just sat here crying from pain and the shock of what dr said . The timing really stunk . The pain is brutal from back to sides to esophagus to upper and lower stomach . So I just wanted to say I am sorry to all my friends , for not reading posts .I pick one a day and comment . If I am not on after Monday you know I am in hospital . To my friends keep writing you are all very talented . Hugs and peace to all .